I don't so much get that exactly, as the feeling that somewhen out there, there is an audience. That somewhere ages and ages hence someone is looking at a picture and thinking back on my time, or trying to imagine what this time that I'm in is like, and that there's some vague distant glimmer of awareness for them that Things Were Happening When That Picture Was Taken, I Wonder What Those Things Were And Who Those People Are.
Oh, it's recursive time-vertigo. For me, anyway. Because it happened after I developed a habit of standing in front of a painting one office I worked in had- it was of the Flatiron Building in New York City, and I'd worked near there a while before. The painting was from when the Flatiron was new, so most of the details were fairly old-looking. Trying to imagine that scene to life was interesting... and then got more so when I was in the city next, and in front of the Flatiron again.
"I'm looking at someone's looking at me- but from which direction in time..."
Believe it or not, it makes sense in my head. I just can't explain it all that well.
There's probably a reason humans don't generally have very good fourth-dimensional perception. It's easier in general if we continue to believe time's arrow only flies one way.
But it's so much fun inducing headaches the other way.
At which point I start taking the punnage apart, because, well, once you've managed to bounce an arrow off your head three times with a single attempt at shooting it in the perfectly normal fashion, you really can't look at 'time flies like an arrow' without sort of wanting to giggle. At least not if you're me.
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Mostly I just feel like . . . an animatronic puppet, kinda? Wait, that's not right.
But did you ever get the feeling that somewhere out there, there is an audience?
It's kind of like that. But fortunately I'm not crazy enough to, like, actually try to rob a bank just to see if there are consequences.
Gah. I hate days like this.
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I think I like your version better, in terms of--not being quite so immediately freaky, though it gives me a sense of time-vertigo.
Fun!
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"I'm looking at someone's looking at me- but from which direction in time..."
Believe it or not, it makes sense in my head. I just can't explain it all that well.
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Dude.
Ow. Yeah, I think I get it. Or my version of it, which--given that I am not in your brain, is probably the closest we'll get.
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But it's so much fun inducing headaches the other way.
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Time flies like an arrow, fruit flies like a banana.
And yes. Yes it is!
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No. No you really couldn't.
Thankfully I like Moebius loops!
Though I wouldn't want to be trapped in one.