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Man.

Okay.

Dude.

Characterbleed sucks. Especially when it's not characterbleed but you flailing over something your idiot pup has done.

Stupid Bird.

I am full of hate.

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Oh, ow. What happened?

This.

In which Antigone is cheerful, and she and Raven are pleased to see each other, and then she says her knife will be kind and she's not going to kill anyone, and then Raven decides to test that theory with himself. And Antigone is freaked out and scared and betrayed and ow my brain and I am all like NOOOOO.

And then my internet crapped out, so I don't know if it's about to finish, or if it will keep going into more misery and me going *wibble*.

*snugs*

*clings*

Apparently I do not often get bleed, but when I do, it is BAD.

This is why it is bad to have characters that are so easy to play it is like putting on your skin.

STUPID BIRD.

I think you are just biased. ;)

NO.

I WHOLEHEARTEDLY AGREE.

*CRIES*

Hmm. Well, when my mother was faced with an irritating bird, she often threatened to fry it.

Which, um, it seems that Raven is all to content to do to himself.

Yeah, I got nothin'.

... I love that icon with a great and unreasonable love.

*g* Say thankya. Gotta love an action movie that has literary references.

I KNOW.

It.

Augh.

The thing that kills me is that really this isn't unexpected. Because Bloddy is in the cells, and some part of him (the crazy bits) would like nothing more than to burn and burn and burn until there's nothing left, and she's gone, and the bar's gone (because it feels like a prison now, some days, and it never did before) and it's just him and her and the end of the universe and he can RIP HER TO PIECES and scatter them in among the stars and watch as those atoms cease to exist to.

And then he can burn, too. And be done.

And so I think he's trying to hold that back, and hold it, and fake it out because he is not used to being scared, not used to feeling like this, and he's chosen it, and he won't unchoose it, because they need him, but he can't stay like this for too much longer and there is nowhere for it to go, and he hurt Coyote, but not enough, and there isn't anyone he can hurt enough except Blodwen, and he can't do that, won't do that, because he knows how bad it gets when he hurts someone just because he wants to, because they burn, and he burns, and he CANNOT STOP.

And okay, wow, I am totally incoherent. Heh.

*goes back to tinycave of darkness, where the pups cannot find me*

...

*cries*

ps. Bran-Raven. Sometime very soon. Please.

*clings*

Sure. Lemme know when you've got time.

*. . . whimpers*

Oh, Bird.

Wah.

So many hugs for you.

It'll be all right. Somehow.

Yeah. *clings*

Um.

Turns out the vacation didn't really help anything except for him to get his mask settles a liiiiitttle bit better.

Heh.

*retreats into cave of darkness*

And now that I am back I have reread all the comments and am flailing right along with you for reasons that I am certain you understand.

Augh. Just augh. What can I do? Anything? Name it, whatever it is.

*hugs* It'll work out. *pets the Bird*

*hugsback, tight*

It better.

*resolves to persevere*

If any of mine can help in any way, just say the word.

I will ponder. I will ponder really a lot.

*grateful*

*continues the hugging and petting*

Oh, ouch. It does suck. *hugs you* This too shall pass? I hope?

You know, I am here whenever you want something non-stressful. I promise nothing but crack shall come of it. :)

It will. Eventually. I hope.

*clings*

Poor Antigone.

And yes. Yes. As soon as I can salvage my brain from the ow, I shall fling myself upon you!

*grateful*

AUGH.

*hides*

Srsly.

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