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[varadia]

Man.

Okay.

Dude.

Characterbleed sucks. Especially when it's not characterbleed but you flailing over something your idiot pup has done.

Stupid Bird.

I am full of hate.

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[varadia]

I KNOW.

It.

Augh.

The thing that kills me is that really this isn't unexpected. Because Bloddy is in the cells, and some part of him (the crazy bits) would like nothing more than to burn and burn and burn until there's nothing left, and she's gone, and the bar's gone (because it feels like a prison now, some days, and it never did before) and it's just him and her and the end of the universe and he can RIP HER TO PIECES and scatter them in among the stars and watch as those atoms cease to exist to.

And then he can burn, too. And be done.

And so I think he's trying to hold that back, and hold it, and fake it out because he is not used to being scared, not used to feeling like this, and he's chosen it, and he won't unchoose it, because they need him, but he can't stay like this for too much longer and there is nowhere for it to go, and he hurt Coyote, but not enough, and there isn't anyone he can hurt enough except Blodwen, and he can't do that, won't do that, because he knows how bad it gets when he hurts someone just because he wants to, because they burn, and he burns, and he CANNOT STOP.

And okay, wow, I am totally incoherent. Heh.

*goes back to tinycave of darkness, where the pups cannot find me*

[rymenhild.livejournal.com]

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*cries*

[rymenhild.livejournal.com]

ps. Bran-Raven. Sometime very soon. Please.

[varadia]

*clings*

Sure. Lemme know when you've got time.

[adiva_calandia]

*. . . whimpers*

Oh, Bird.

[cupenny.livejournal.com]

Wah.