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So.
Doctor's appointment this morning about the depression. I am now taking Lexapro. Has anyone had any experience with this? I feel kind of odd about it--medication makes me uncomfortable. I worry now that I've exaggerated my symptoms in an effort to make myself all dramatic (which is probably in itself a symptom, yay me!). I also have a business card for the woman I'm supposed to see as a counselor.
So, anyone who knows me is probably aware of my 'issue' with touching--I don't do it, I don't like it, and it freaks me out. So, I asked if this person could help me deal with that problem, and predictably she asked if I'd been abused. I said 'no', but I was diagnosed with precocious puberty, and so I had lots of medical treatments, which involved blood tests and pap smears, and I remember being held down so they could stick in the needle. I also remember that the pap smears hurt and were very uncomfortable. She says 'you were pretty young, then, maybe twelve' and I wanted to laugh, and was like 'no, four, or maybe five' and she was like WTF? Her shock was kind of funny. She wanted to know where I'd gone for that. I think she wanted to hit the doctors. It's kind of sad that the holding down needle thing happened in children's hospital. I think. Maybe it was Mercy, I dunno. Mom remembers it too, so I'm not delusional.
Anyway, that's apparently my problem, and I need to get it fixed, or I'll never have a relationship--she was very disturbed when I said I've never been sexually active.
*sigh*
Hopefully by this time next year my head will be more straightened out.
(I'm really weirded out by the medication-- I don't want to take it). But I will.
Doctor's appointment this morning about the depression. I am now taking Lexapro. Has anyone had any experience with this? I feel kind of odd about it--medication makes me uncomfortable. I worry now that I've exaggerated my symptoms in an effort to make myself all dramatic (which is probably in itself a symptom, yay me!). I also have a business card for the woman I'm supposed to see as a counselor.
So, anyone who knows me is probably aware of my 'issue' with touching--I don't do it, I don't like it, and it freaks me out. So, I asked if this person could help me deal with that problem, and predictably she asked if I'd been abused. I said 'no', but I was diagnosed with precocious puberty, and so I had lots of medical treatments, which involved blood tests and pap smears, and I remember being held down so they could stick in the needle. I also remember that the pap smears hurt and were very uncomfortable. She says 'you were pretty young, then, maybe twelve' and I wanted to laugh, and was like 'no, four, or maybe five' and she was like WTF? Her shock was kind of funny. She wanted to know where I'd gone for that. I think she wanted to hit the doctors. It's kind of sad that the holding down needle thing happened in children's hospital. I think. Maybe it was Mercy, I dunno. Mom remembers it too, so I'm not delusional.
Anyway, that's apparently my problem, and I need to get it fixed, or I'll never have a relationship--she was very disturbed when I said I've never been sexually active.
*sigh*
Hopefully by this time next year my head will be more straightened out.
(I'm really weirded out by the medication-- I don't want to take it). But I will.
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But I could be wrong.
*grin*