varadia | (no subject)

::hugs::

I'm kind of low too. We'll be mis'ble together.

I just read about your grandma. My prayers are with you and her. *zen hugs*

Zank you!

Oh, man. ::groans:: Now that was low.

Anyway, yeah, I read your post about being lonely. :( wah for my L! that's really harsh. ::hugs::

Are you okay, sweetie?

*hugs again*

I'm in a very weird place. I feel like things are all normal, and I can recognize teh funny and even laugh, but it's a bit odd--the world is tilted, just a few degrees, and it's all tense like the moment before a kaleidoscope's shards fall into a new position, like waiting for something important, except you don't know what it is.

Like I have no right to be grieving yet, but it's still wrong of me to be happy, over anything, even stupid word-play jokes.

I remember that feeling. It sucks. Sometimes it helps to imagine if the person were well, that they would tell you you were being silly.

It only works if they actually would tell you that, though.

*hug*

It gets better, really, once things stop being in limbo.

The limbo is the distressing part. I'll miss Grandma, certainly, but constantly on the worry-rollercoaster for years isn't a whole lot of fun.

Grandma would have told me I was being silly, back when she still remembered my name.

okay, and now i'm crying for real. bedtime for me i think. early flight in the morning.

one last supertight ::hug::

*hug*

*still hugging*

Have a good flight.

Hola, amiga. I wish I could say more, but I have to be up by 4:30. Bah. But, hi!!! You are amazing and don't forget it. I hope you have a much, much, much better day tomorrow.

Thank you--I just, sometimes I get tired of being 'afraid' of large groups of people. I keep thinking I'm better, but no.

Have fun very early tomorrow morning, if that's at all possible.

Hey! Read your earlier post - I'm sorry that you're going through this. I tend to do this in winter too - feel like nature's death is grabbing me and holding me in its icy grip. I'm in grad school too, and the pressure really gets to me. I've hit burn out big time in the past week. Tonight's the first time in 2 weeks I'm giving myself a guilt-free night off! Between classes and teaching and then part-time work (and QAF fanning and the gym!) I seriously need to find a nice Caribbean beach.

I don't know if this will help, but I always tell myself when I hit these patches, that everything changes. The best and worst fact of life. And spring is coming. Either that, or I'm gonna hop a jet to Aruba and abdicate all responsibility (yeah! I wish!).

Yeah, grad school has been getting me down, lately, and I'm in my first year, so I feel out of my depth all the time.

The real problem is that I don't like big groups of people, so I don't socialize much, so I don't really have good friends (yet, of course), and I feel very isolated sometimes.

And then I get irritated, because it's my own damn fault.

*sigh* Spring will make it better, because my default setting will no longer be 'melancholy and introspective'.

Thanks for the comment and the commiseration.

I can:

Sing you a song
Tell you a joke
Post some porn (hardship yeah)
Show you pictures of cute babies

I can't:
Juggle :(

What would you like? :)

Can I put a bid on the porn option? Porn always makes me feel better.

Thanks.

Although I must say, I'm disappointed about the juggling.

Yeah, I'm a klutz at keeping balls in the air. :(

But I've got pictures of pretty naked boys with other pretty naked boys! Obviously not work/parents/children safe. :)

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v14/nightsister/Pron/Lights.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v14/nightsister/Pron/OntheRocks.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v14/nightsister/Pron/fingering.jpg

And here's an oldie but goodie that I had lying around:

Brian: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v14/nightsister/QaF/QAF17.jpg

Enjoy! I have more! LOL

Pretty boys!

With the sex!

Thank you.

Also, I'd forgotten about that particular cock-shot. *snicker*

Also, I'd forgotten about that particular cock-shot. *snicker*

It's the Testicles of Doom that kill me. OMG THE BALLS. :D

I don't know you, but I second the porn option. Yay porn!

Done! Hooray for porn! :D

Hey :D

Hi. :)

>:D

Thanks :)

(my knowledge of the smiley language is woefully small).

>:D