T- minus one day and counting or: Oh god oh god I'm going to die (metaphorically)

[varadia]

Why is it not tomorrow yet?

At this point I have done my reading, and reviewing, and playing 20 questions vs the slides in order to try to anticipate what sorts of things the bossmen will ask me, and I am glad of that.

Now it is all tweaking the slides in a fit of twitchiness, and going back over tiny details that I think I might possible get backwards.

Oh, and going over the handful of equations I don't quite trust myself to have memorized.

So, really, this next 26 hours are gonna be the death of me.

And then I will get drunk.

Or RP.

Or get drunk and RP. All. Night. Long.

Or sleep.

One of those. Yes.

Comments

[miscellanny.livejournal.com]

Take a breeeeeeak. Don't read a book because OMG CONFUSING but put on a crappy film. One of those ones you really don't have to think about in any way shape or form. Something with someone pretty in it.

♥

Also? You'll do grand. Seriously.

[varadia]

*hugs*

That is a good plan. I shall implement it post-haste.

[fire-and-a-rose.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[varadia]

*clings*

[buongiornodaisy.livejournal.com]

No drinking until I get there! You'll just have to deal with tea. :P

*tight, tight hugs*

[varadia]

*hugs back, lots*

Woe, tea will not get me plastered.

But maybe if I add a lot of sugar . . .

[silveraspen]

First?

Breathe.

Seriously. Put everything down, go to a window or walk around a building, and focus on breathing.

Meanwhile, I will emulate Julian of Norwich. "All will be well, and all will be well, and all manner of thing will be well."

[varadia]

*breathes, obediently*

Yeah. I came in to work just to get a couple questions answered, and I think I have.

So yes. Home now.

Home and relaxing a bit, and practicing my talk later tonight, just to make sure (because I added a couple slides of background) I have the flow in my head.

But I think I will be okay. Yes.

*goes back to breathing*

[darthrami.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

I'm sending your present up with Mir. Because apparently I lose at the post office.

[varadia]

*HUGS BACK*

The posts office is Satan's step-half-newphew.

Or something. Yes.

(also eeee present!)

[bcgphoenix]

You will do fine. In fact, you'll do better than fine: you'll kick innumerable amounts of ass. I firmly believe this.

Also, I fully endorse Aspen's advice on the breathing.

*HUGS*

[varadia]

Yeah, me and River, right? *imagines going all 'Miranda' on professors. Whee!*

But yes, the confidence means a lot to me.

*HUGS*

Breathing is my favorite. Seriously.

[illmantrim.livejournal.com]

Take a long break first, and rest, or watch a movie.

*hugs*

You can do this and you will. You are righteously cool and most groovily smart.

[varadia]

*hugs back*

Thanks, man.

Break is for tonight, yes. And I get to listen to music on my drive home! So that counts, right?

[illmantrim.livejournal.com]

*eyes*

Just make sure to try to get away from it some today. We all need time down, especially right before we are doing something this big. Find what makes you happy, focus on it, and do it. Take some time to practice some too, if it makes you feel better, but dont make it the focus of your world. You can do this and will. Trust yourself.

[varadia]

*salutes*

Will do!

It is a balance between preventing the nervousness, and making myself angst because I am NOT USING MY TIME WISELY DAMMIT.

My psyche is insane. I know this.

*grins weakly*

[illmantrim.livejournal.com]

You will make it.

[rimestock.livejournal.com]

Go make yourself tea now, because it will help.

And spend at least half an hour out of the next four doing something horribly goofy that has no bearing whatsoever on your thing, because you need a break to let yourself relax and not be a tense mess of nerves and stuff. That's bad.

Also you can call me! You can totally call me. But wait a little, till 1:30 your time or so, because I gotta go take a shower, and I refuse to combine the two.

But I love you. ♥

[varadia]

I am at office! I cannot make tea!

Also shit I need to e-mail my committee with a reminder about tomorrow, because Tomasz is absent-minded LIEK WHOA. *makes note*

Okay! I might call, and I might not, because whee stress!

*loves back*

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

IF I AM NOT AROUND TONIGHT -- late tonight -- I WILL MISS YOU AND WEEP.

[varadia]

I WILL GIVE YOU KLEENEX TOMORROW.

*FLAILS LIKE HEADLESS AND FOOTLESS CHICKEN*

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

Woez!

Any idea when you plan to be around?

[varadia]

I might be around between 10 and 12 tonight EST.

And then tomorrow, god I will be on all night tomorrow.

*clings*

[schiarire.livejournal.com]

AWESOME.

*clings*

[bodldops.livejournal.com]

*snugs* You can do it, I know you can. And I am here for whatever.

[cupenny.livejournal.com]

*snugz* You will do wonderful. Breathe, and know this.

And I wish I was there to buy you a drink when it is all over!

[vivien]

Tonight take an hour of total downtime. Watch TV or take a bubblebath or go get a banana split. Believe me, when faced with "YARRR!" having even just one hour of relief will help you a lot.

(((HUGS YOU TIGHT!!!)))