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I'm pretty much in line with where I wanted to be (pending boss-discussion tomorrow) in terms of my orals on July 25. But. I can't help being nervous (and by nervous I mean totally panicked, by the way), because bossman has a way of throwing curveballs.
I mean, there's still a couple references I want to hunt up in my pursuit of understanding the band-structure and elemental physics regarding polymer conductivity (and metallic conductivity, really), but for the most part I've got some helpful articles about that kind of thing, and just need to review them.
Same for polymer physical properties and the basics of phase separation, kinetics, thermodynamics, etc. Just. I dunno. It seems so HUGE, even though I know what I need to look for, and things. Not to mention prepping the presentation and attempting to close up/explain/advance the weaknesses/problems in my research so far. It--I think that's the part that scares me most. I mean, the background info I can learn (or relearn, as the case may be--refresh, lets say), but if my work and understanding of my work and explication of my work are sub-par, I'm fucked.
And I feel like I've not made enough progress in ANY of the fields I've been working in. It. Well, it's not a good feeling, and it might not even be an accurate one. I mean, the last time someone was told 'hey, not enough experimental stuff, here', he knew about it (hell, everyone knew about it practically) way before he even did his oral presentation/grilling thing. I think. As I recall. So. I mean. I don't know. I just feel like maybe I've been wasting all my time here, and that maybe I should have done something else with my life.
I'll get over it, I think.
I hope.
God I want to pass.
I mean, there's still a couple references I want to hunt up in my pursuit of understanding the band-structure and elemental physics regarding polymer conductivity (and metallic conductivity, really), but for the most part I've got some helpful articles about that kind of thing, and just need to review them.
Same for polymer physical properties and the basics of phase separation, kinetics, thermodynamics, etc. Just. I dunno. It seems so HUGE, even though I know what I need to look for, and things. Not to mention prepping the presentation and attempting to close up/explain/advance the weaknesses/problems in my research so far. It--I think that's the part that scares me most. I mean, the background info I can learn (or relearn, as the case may be--refresh, lets say), but if my work and understanding of my work and explication of my work are sub-par, I'm fucked.
And I feel like I've not made enough progress in ANY of the fields I've been working in. It. Well, it's not a good feeling, and it might not even be an accurate one. I mean, the last time someone was told 'hey, not enough experimental stuff, here', he knew about it (hell, everyone knew about it practically) way before he even did his oral presentation/grilling thing. I think. As I recall. So. I mean. I don't know. I just feel like maybe I've been wasting all my time here, and that maybe I should have done something else with my life.
I'll get over it, I think.
I hope.
God I want to pass.